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Jan 27

Due to the overwhelming responds I got from part one of my story I have decided to start my own blog and journal my journey through healing to freedom. My prayer is that my experience will help others, who have lost, to be free from guilt and grieve. You can follow me by clicking here. Please share this with someone who needs it. I know it is helping me and I want it to help others. I will still post articles here at B-A-Light Productions from time to time. You can follow me on Twitter also.

Jan 24

Waving Hello!!

A while back I received a Google Wave invite from Sam Luce I was so excited I had heard great things about it and wanted to know more. I have used the Wave, but not that much. In case you do not know Google Wave is still in its “preview” stage. So not all the bugs are worked out and in my opinion it does not quite have the features it needs. Google’s plan was for Wave to replace how people collaborate with each other. This can be done and will be however Google is wanting wave to be stand alone. Not going to happen! The mass appeal is not there. Regular “Joes” have no need for it, so Facebook is where they will be. Now business professionals will see great benefit from Wave. As I said earlier Wave is in preview so only certain people have it. I was fortunate to receive an invite and have enjoyed the ability to see what it was about, but more people need to be involved for it to be effective. So that brings me to the reason of this post. I have 12 Google Wave invites to give away. So if you want one or know of someone who does leave a comment and I will hook you up!

Jan 24

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Jan 22

My Story (Part 1)

God really laid it on my heart to tell you guys my story. It is too long to post in one blog, so I am going to post it in sections over the course of the next week. Please read it and enjoy. Thanks, Jennifer

I am about to write about something that is very difficult for me to write about. In fact the thought of writing about this sends me into a panic attack. It is a subject that I have been avoiding for almost six years. It is about the guilt I feel surrounding my daughter, Rebecca’s, death. So why am I writing about it? Refining. I have been doing a study called “Breaking Free” by Beth Moore, and she has been talking about refining and the trials that we go through. She said self protection is the stumbling block for not fulfilling your calling. And that is exactly what I do when I tell of my daughter’s death. “How did she die?” That question brings an earth shattering fear in the pit of my stomach. Fear of Judgement and Rejection.

There is a small mystery to her death. I am not completely sure what happened except for a series of very unfortunate events. It all started on a Sunday night. She was playing in the parking lot at the front of the church. She ran toward another child who was being swung in the air by a young adult and was knocked off of her feet. Though I did not see it personally, I knew that she had hit the pavement very hard, and those who saw it say that she bounced. There was no goose egg (I know now that is a bad sign) but she seemed fine. No throwing up, no sleepiness, nothing.

Later that week (Wednesday afternoon), we were at the church waiting out the couple of hours before church began. She seemed fussy, I remember she acted like she needed a nap and I knew she had been battling an ear infection, so I laid her down and tried to make her take a nap. But she would not lay down, she just stood there and cried. So, I picked her up and took her back to where Eric and I were. I remember she acted almost as if her head was bothering her…almost like she had a bad sinus headache and it hurt to move it. The next day though, Rebecca was fine. By this point, I had forgotten about the fall earlier in the week and I did not put the two together. We also did not have any health insurance at the time so we did not go running to the doctor either (reason # 1 for my guilt).

So that brings us to Saturday. Everything was going as normal. We were expecting a visit from my parents and were busy cleaning and preparing for their visit. They arrived that afternoon and Rebecca had to warm up to them which was a little unusual, but it did not take her long. I remember my mom and dad lying down to take a nap after their long 7 hour drive and they closed the door so they would not be disturbed. Rebecca was not quite two and just starting to talk a little. I remember her standing at the guest room door, with her hand on it, and I told her to say “Please” and she said “Peeeeasss.” Tired or not how do you resist that? My mom could not resist letting her in there. A few minutes later I heard it. She was playing on the bed with my mom and dad, and she fell. The fall shook the apartment. I ran into check on her and she was crying. When she saw me she reached for me and I took her into my arms and held her and kissed her. But she would not be comforted. She started pushing me away and I stood her next to me and she continued to through what appeared to be a fit. Then she lost consciousness and that is when we realized she was having a seizure.

To Be Continued….

Read Part 2 here!

Jan 18

Looking Through “Orange” Colored Glasses

I first heard about “Orange” last year reading the Twits of Sam Luce, Jonthan Cliff, Kenny Conley, Gina McClain and Jim Wideman. I knew that I wanted to go next year (that would be this year). A friend and co-creator of this company Keith Glines told me he heard about Orange at Catlyst last year and wanted to go also. So I was pumped about “Orange Week” from great bloggers like those above. The more I read the more excited I am. The funds will be a challenge for Keith and I, but I think I can get at least $500 for a kidney on the black market. So we will be there!

I love the idea of Orange and the ReThink team. I think this is the future of the “church” if not it will be the demise of the “church”. I do feel it is a huge task and it must start with changing the mindset for pastors (senior, family, community, youth and children’s). Let me explain. I grew up Church of God (Cleveland, TN), I pastored in a COG, I’m licensed with COG. I know COG. In my time I have never saw a senior pastor stay at a church for more than 7 year constitutively, there in lies the problem. Senior pastors typically only last for a few years, they want to be there forever but have accepted the idea that they will only be there for a few years. Same with youth and children’s pastors, only less time. So the idea of ministering to someone there whole life does not hit the radar, although most of the congregates will be at that church for most of their life. This may not be typical for every area but here in the deep south it rings true. Changing the hearts and minds of pastors to think long term or “life term” if you will is the challenge. I myself have now stared to ponder this concept and ways that I can encourage it among pastors. I am one of many in the sea of Children’s Ministry bloggers out there and no where the best, YET!! I know I will improve God told me so!

If you would like to know more about “Orange” click on any of the links above and here are some more bloggers chatting up “Orange”

JC Online, North Point Kids, Dan Scott, Matt McKee, Anthony Prince. There are many others but this should get you going.

Click below to register now!!

God’s Love and Peace Out!

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